Blog post 13

 Thanksgiving is over and it is almost Christmas. It's the last week before finals and it has been one of the most stressful weeks I have ever had as a college student. Find out what days we have a final on to make up work that was due in late November. This week has taken a toll on my mental health because of how little time I had to think for myself. I also got sick this week and had to miss some of my classes. From what I heard, I haven’t missed a lot in most of my classes because I am caught up with little to no work to make up. I maxed out this week in the weight room during football workouts. And I had one of the top vertical jumps on the spring football team. I did my final for Foundations and Servant Leadership on Tuesday and honestly, it was one the easiest finals I ever took in my life. The final was a handwritten paper about all the things I have learned in that class in that close alone and how I will apply that to my life. That class alone taught me how to be confident in my decisions and even as a leader/ role model, I still gotta be able to take criticism and be willing to learn something new. It also taught me that the better I grow my relationship with God and live for him, he will show us our purpose and will walk along the not-so-long road we call life. I met with the school counselor this week to talk about what's going on and why I feel more alone than usual. From what he could see, it’s because I haven’t been social lately and I have been focused on school and what the future brings. He said I need to live in the moment and make some friends because I have established associates, but haven’t bonded a lot because I have too many walls set up due to past trauma causing my trust issues to come in. So it’s good to think about the future, but life would be a little easier with people in my corner.